Thursday, July 9, 2009
I Will Listen
I have heard voices, speaking to me in my head, all of my life... that I can remember.
I have always lived in my head.
I looked in my friend's mirror as a child and heard "You can't tell, It is a secret."
As an adult I went back to where I grew up till I was 13. As I drove those small streets and thought about all that I could not remember about growing up there, I heard, "You don't remember because you Choose not to remember."
Over at Blooming Lotus, Faith is discussing opening up communication with the parts of me that are inside trying to help me heal, trying to communicate with me. As always, it never ceases to amaze me that as I work through this process help is placed in my path when I need it. I have found Faith's posts to be so helpful to me and I can't Thank Her enough.
Just this week I asked my therapist "why after all of this time, when I have accepted the lack of memories which I desired for validation, Why Now?" He said, "There is an answer." I almost blew right past that comment, instead, I stopped, He said, "You weren't ready."
Well, let it be known, My Sweet Little Vicki, and whoever else in here that wants to talk...
I am ready
I will listen
I will validate you
I will believe you
You can trust me
I will protect you
I will nurture you
I will be gentle with us
I Love You
I WILL be the Mother You never had.